I miss you

Keith-

Plain and simple...I miss you! I know we didn't talk all the time, and I know that there were probably a good number of days when we didn't like each other. But I always loved you and I always looked up to you as not only my big brother but as my hero. You ran into burning buildings and saved people's lives. That's cool for any little girl to look up to a brother for.

You were my first male role model. I mean let's be serious, my dad was not someone I looked up to. He was gone before I even knew what was up. You though, you were my big brother who ran into burning buildings, yet who I knew loved me so much. Looking back at all these pictures of us growing up and the way you looked at all of us, you loved us so much. Family was so important to you.

Family life has not always been easy, we have all grown into stubborn adults, but family was always a priority. I get that now. People tell me how much my face has always lit up when I've talked about family. I never knew that. But apparently any time I would tell stories about our family, my face would just light up. Which is good, because I plan on telling a lot of people about you still. Your memory will live on in the stories. We all carry a piece of you.

I hope you are at peace, despite what it seems is going on here. Not everyone gets along, and I have tried...but I am just so ticked off at times. I miss you and it is my right to miss you. You were and are very important in my life. That is never going to go away. You will always be my big brother, there is nothing that will take that away. I know that you are watching over me with a guiding hand. I know that I have another angel on my side.

I miss you Keith so much and some days it hurts a lot.

Love Always,

Nikki