I'm sitting at home, and even though we've never lived together in this house...it's just not the same. When I am home, it is more real than ever that you are really gone. It is still hard to say those words, but here in Lancaster it is like I cannot escape the truth. This really sucks, I don't like this reality. This is not the way it is supposed to be.
I sit in the living room and I see your flag, and your pictures and the memories flood back to the worst week of my life. You will never be forgotten and I hope you know that. You will forever live in each of us. There is no forgetting, I still have two brothers and a sister. I may never be able to hear your voice again, or see your smirk, but you will forever be my big brother...nothing and no one will ever change that.
I cried tonight watching the video they showed at the banquet last week. That too today made it more real than ever. Seeing it all again, hearing the announcement again, and your last call. Mom and I talked about you tonight too. We will always talk about you, because we will always miss you. I am really going to miss you picking on me at the holiday dinner table.
Oh Keith, this is not fair. I say it time and time again, and I mean it every time. You are so missed. This is not the way things were supposed to happen. You were not supposed to be gone this soon. I still ask why, and I still battle with the anger, because I don't understand. There are criminals running around, there are people who do horrible things who are still breathing, why did they take my big brother...who may have gotten into trouble from time to time, but who was the type of guy who would give the shirt off his back to a person in need. You were one of the most giving people I have ever known, and I am so proud that you were and are my big brother.
I love and miss you Keith Gregory.
Love Always,
Your Little Sister,
Nikki
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